moments.in.my.life.

.moments.

^studying at home =)

^this rose is from her




7amaam =D and it was raining.. (in school)






^ products of my hand.. LOL
I miss knitting wallah =(


mini jellys yum yumm =D


Is there a chance to meet U? ="(
"dr. fatma alkhumairi, a graduate from my college and the first
6abeeba shar3yah in UAE"

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they weren't the best but what I thought to post..
more coming soon.
♥sparkle♥

would do anything..

Months have passed.. few days coming over..
and my first year is done.. enshaAllah
I've been through millions of feelings.. thoughts.. and experiences
I don't want to say that my experiences should be graced (they're nothing).. but
they were my little things.. the little things I felt.. Sacrificed for.. Cried for..
and I'm longing for more of this life, nothing's better than learning
from it and from others :)
looking back at my first days in my new life,
I see myself a hesitant, shy girl..but since those days till now,
I've been filled with experiences from everyone I met..
I could read the message they want to tell me from their eyes..
I saw agony mixed with joy in the same eyes..
smartness and selfishness (in the same eyes too)
all of them have stamped a unique touch on my heart..
some of them left
the others are leaving
but I'll keep my heart always praying for them..
and from the days I was the "hesitant"
I could be a better person..
knowing what suits me and what does not..
where I should be present and where I shouldn't..
learned the means of respect and love,
the means of strength and patience..
the means and ways to make others smile while your heart-broken..
and I repeat saying that all of that is "nothing"
I'm still with no appreciated deed in this wide world..
it's so much wider than my eyes can see.. than my sight can reach..
I just want to reach the dream I look for
and in it I'll be able to see the whole world :)

mood: peaceful..
hearing: my sisters and their friends voices + TV
watching: cartoonZ
reading: biochem. sheets


I escaped yesterday from the hostel and skipped 2 lecutres of today.. but going back tomorrow for I need to study in the hostel's quietness ^_^ (in weekends only of course!)hmmm.. sunday is the first day of mid-term exams which will be in biochemistry >__<.. the next exam is immunology.. I get frustrated everytime I remember the immuno. gap and Anatomy's gap.. ufffffffffffff we're given 4 and a half days for 4 sheets of immunology and 2 days for 10 sheets of anatomy O_O!! the whooooole upper limb and embryology!! UNFAIR!! =( anyway.. I'll do my best w enshallah 5air! n_n



sho elsalfah everytime I sign in in msn I don't find anybody! did they change their email addresse's or msn became suddenly not included in their life style? lol regarding me, msn is blocked in the hosteland I barely find time @ home to sign in so.. msn disappeared from my life with 80% ..





el7amdlillah, on wednesday- 35\3\09 (I & my group A&A&R) presented our Article "Fragile X Syndrome"..we did great as our doctors and colleagues said.. the only mistake that we did is that we didn't take the time in consideration.. it was obligatory to present in 1 hour but we did it only in 30 minutes so we gonna lose somemarks for this but eshallah not many >_<.. anyway I'm so glad that I worked with such a unique group..
Thanx A , A & R =)

as exams are so soon, I'm back to my addiction to coffee ( Rmlah don't get mad on me!!) I don't usually drink itexcept in exams.. I remember the mornings of january exams.. I used not to be able to study unless I drink a cupof nescafe' ..



so bad that signing in to blogger is blocked in the hostel so I can't post at all unless I'm home..what a disgusting military hostel.. the only thing that they didn't do is to let us all wear the same dress.. just like the prisoners -_-"
w el7ayah 7lwah wain ma kenna

soon enshalla I'll talk briefly about fragile x syndrome
as we promised to support it till the end

and now good night all =)

يا أخـي يخشـع ُ دمعـي
كلمـا رف ّ طيـف ُ الذكـريـات ِ الأولِ


يا أخي والمجد ُ غايات ٌ سمـتْ
مـن يُـرد ْ إدراكهـا فليـبـذلِ


كل ُ مـن رام َ العُـلا لـم تثنـهِ
وحشة ُ الدرب ِ وبعـد ُ المنـزلِ

Tranquil days

It's Thursday so I'm home again after a long long week which is the 1st in this semester,. It was good despite the long nights I spent awake and the difficulty of waking up so early and leaving my worm bed aaaaah but this feeling disppears as I enter the class elhamdlillah..

I guess this week was so special.. do u wonder why? Hmmm I don't know either!

Good things VS Bad things *_*

First >> good things:
- FinallyJ I could know how to enjoy studying.. I also realized that I won't be able to enjoy medicine unless I was over-curious or hyper-curious O_O.. even if I'm not! I HAVE TO BE!! An obligation=D
-I got to know (j) (: it was by a chance when we discovered that both of us like one of the tv serieses so we watched it together @ the cafetria of the hostel @ mid-night!
-received a messege from a precious person(T.F) Allah y7fa'6ha mn kl shar w ys3dha w ywafgha <3
- bought a new laptop =D

Bad things:
-I felt so lonely in the first night in the hostel and I got that disguasting feeling which I go through at the beginning of every semester whether now or at school..
-one of the students in our batch (amaal) left the college! I'm miss her although I never been close to her or something but I remember the days when I used to see her in the mosque @ tarawee7 prayer.. may Allah light her path and fill her life with blesses.. :(

bas mashay wayed bad things el7amdlillah =P

Haih! I didn't talk to my.soul.mate this week which is a very very bad thing :(

bas bas =P

sudden longing

Today, I woke up feeling an extremely weird feelings.. after dreaming of going to do Omrah..honestly.. I never could imagin how the feeling of missing makka would be! Maybe cause I have never been there before.. even though, when I woke up I felt like as if I was truely there! In the crowd, seeing people praying around.. It was a nice dream and the surprising part is that when I woke up and checked my mobile, I saw a massege that contains:
مكة المكرمة
It was about a new building in makka as I think.. called
برج المقام


اللهم ارزقني زيارةً إلى بيتك الحرام
="(

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ها أنا أكمل ما خطته يداي قبل 4 أشهر، في الصيف تحديداً، قبل أن أبدأ مسيرة حياتي الجديدة، والتي بدأتها بمشاعر الألم والحسرة يوماً، والرضا والاستقرار يوماً آخر، و هكذا كانت باقي الأيام.. كنت أتخبط يمنةً ويسرةً، بحثاً عن من يخرجني من المأزق والورطة الكبيرة التي أوقعت نفسي بها، سأكون صريحة هنا.. لم أكن راضية أبداً عن قراري بدخول الطب منذ أول يوم لي فالسكن! تجربة مريعة، مخيفة، بااائسة يائسة!!.....بعدها> بدأ أول يوم على غير الخير!! لم أستطع كفكفة دموعي طوال اليوم، دخلت الكلية، أخذت أتلفت بلهفة بحثاً عن زميلاتي وصديقاتي ومعلماتي، ولكن لم أجد أحداً منهم! شعرت بأنني وحيدة في هذا الكون، وحيدة النفس والصحاب والأماني والأحلام، كرهت نفسي كرهاً شديداً وكرهت كل من حولي واليوم الذي سجلت فيه في هذه الكلية التي لا حياة فيها ، تباً لكِ يا "كلية دبي الطبية" لم تتركي لي أحداً ممن أحبهم بجانبي!..... حضرت حفلة استقبالنا وأذكر أن انهمار دموع زاد عندما سمعت النشيد الوطني وكأنني أقول في نفسي" سامحني يا وطني لقد .......... خنتك!" 0


هذه كانت حالتي واليوم أصف نفسي بالضعيفة! نعم "كنتُ" ضعيفة النفس، اهتزت ثقتي بنفسي بل انمحت وكأن شيئاً لم يكن، لو رأتني صديقاتي على حالتي تلك فلن يصدقن، أقسم أنه لن تصدق إحداهن أنني أنا تلك! لا لقوة شخصيتي السابقة ولا لسيطرتي على الأمور بل لاعتيادي على أخذ الأمور "ببساطة" (ليس دائماً طبعاً) ، لكن الفاجعة أنني زدت كل عقدة تعقيداً! أو كما يقولون زدت الطين بللاً،،.. أصبحت مترددة كما ذكرت في بداية كتابتي، فضّلت الانسحاب بكل بساطة!! اتخذت البساطة في الأمور السلبية فقط!.. أرضى بقراري يوماً وأسخط منه يوماً آخر.. كرهت كل من رأيت وكل من أسدى لي رأياً أو خدمة! "هل ترينني ضعيفة إلى تلك الدرجة؟؟ أأثير شفقتك إلى هذا الحد؟؟ أترينني قليلة الخبرة بالدرجة التي لا تصل إلى ربع خبراتك لأنك أكبر مني بسنة أو سنتين في عمر الطب؟؟ تباً لكن!" << هذا ما كان يتردد في نفسي بشكل مبعثر لا كما سطرته الآن، جن جنوني! أردت العودة إلى المنزل بأقرب وقت، كانت دموعي تنهمر بلا توقف كلما حادثت أحداً من أهلي وبالأخص والدتي، حتى أذكر أنني اتصلت بها يوم الأثنين بعد أن انقطعت بي السبل وقررت الانسحاب، أجابت أمي على رنين الهاتف وبدأت فوراً بالصراخ والنحيب كأن شخصاً قريب قد توفي! مالذي يدعوك إلى ذلك؟ لا أريد أن أدرس الطب! 0

وما كان للطب شأن في كل ما كان يحدث لي، إلا أن نفسي هي التي تبدلت. 0


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Long time haven't posted anything here, I've been so busy lately with studying, my family, my silly issues with some people, with myself! I'm sick of the word "myself".. anywayzZz
I lack communicating with my friends these days, except the one I can't live without ;) and some of them call me from time to time yzahum Allah 5air =) wallah sorry girls I try my best to make a balance that can make me spend to maximal time with my family which is my
p r i o r i t y and I hardly find that time =(
I'm thinking seriously about making a small gathering somewhere to gather will all my school classmates and friends, I know it's hard cuz my vacations do not match their's and not all of them will attend but enshaAllah 5air.
اشتقنا لشوفتكم حبايبنا ="(
2 days ago I was so shocked to know that *m*'s sisters (2nd year) were my sister's friends in college and still =) It was a big shock hoooooooow didn't I know that? =0
Anywaaayz
My final exams aren't too far away
Allah yastr :-#