Sparkle

فـ ـ ــي أمـ ـــ ـل

2011-02-18T04:08:00.002+04:00

I've been waiting this vacation since 2 and a half years and oh god it's over in a blink :)

back to the track

with hopes

fe amaل

Here it comes ;)

2011-01-25T16:12:00.002+04:00

Here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun
and I say it's all right
*The beatles

عذراً فالبرد يقتلني!!

2011-01-25T02:16:00.005+04:00

أغلق سحاب كوتي الشتوي وأنا أرتجف وأنطلق إلى دولاب جواربي
لأسحب منه جواربي الصوفية الدافئة وأرى ملامح السأم على وجه أمي
من أثر شكواي الدائم وتأففي بسبب برودة الجو

فمن يراني فالمنزل بلا شك سيشعر بأنه دخل بيتاً من بيوت الثلج
لسكان الألاسكا

لا يلاءمني هذا الجو كثيراً
وأفضل أن أقضيه في فتره الدراسة والإمتحانات
لا فالإجازة =\

قبل عام من اليوم كنتُ في سنتي الدراسية الثانية
أتذكر.. حين لم أكن أحب الخروج من غرفتي 29
احتوتني زوايا غرفتي الصغيره بكل دفء في ذلك الجو البارد
أتذكر هطول الأمطار
وكيف كنت أسرع بفتح نافذة غرفتي لأدع قطرات المطر تبلل وجهي وملابسي
وأوراقي!
لم أكترث، بل ضمتني غرفتي كالطفل الذي غطته أمه من رأسه حتى قدميه
ب 10 قطع أو أكثر من الملابس التي تدفئه
لم أكن أحس بما أحس به الآن
لا أحب البرد...... !

شيئاً آخر لا أحبه
هو أنني عرفتكِ
في الشتاء
الفصل الذي لا أحبه
بروده يقتلني !
ربما لهذا السبب تركتكِ
لكي لا تذكريني
بليالينا الطويلة
ولقاءاتنا العابرة الـبــاردة
وبرودكِ
كاد
يقتلني
!!

لهذا تركتكِ ولن أتراجع

فـ أنا
لا
أ ح ب
البرد
!

2011-01-23T02:20:00.002+04:00

Up at 6:00 am. have my coffee. open up my window and pop out my head looking at the airplanes taking off the airport. a scene that I love when watching the airplanes in their best look. their eminency that I love when their direction is towards the sky up there! Leaving everything beyond and carrying what's important to them and what they are made for towards their destination. so elegant.

That was a part of my daily routine during the exams period and now it makes me think.. what if I carried what is important to me and left everything and everyone else behind? will be there any change?
what if I stopped caring about others who seem not needing me in there life.. it seems to me.. I never know how it seems to them.. will they come and look for me? will they book a ticket flying to my room if they needed me or I did? I never know if they do or not.. time will determine and days will show me the truth.. I decided to fly like the airplanes I used to see everyday.. Not alone of course, airplanes cross up above the clouds but without crashing.. but to me, I prefer to have a life full of smooth crashings with others who are welcomed.. and everybody is welcomed. Got to say that I have to leave some people's lives. leaving a space for others to enter.
now fastening my seat belt....................
Flying!

2011-01-21T23:38:00.001+04:00

So looking back at 2010 I see myself as a loser.. not meaning to humiliate myself but hoping to change. Yes I was a loser and a big one, I thought I could control everything I do or think about but I actually was dreaming.. I had the widest imagination which have thrown me in a dirty muck.. I tried to stand up and remove the dirt and I raised one leg to walk a step but I again fell.. I did that a thousand time and all what I was doing is working hard on myself to keep on living normally.. I tried to maintain a life but it didn't last so long.. Till the end of 2010 when I again have thrown myself in a deeper muck.. it was a black ocean of shallow thoughts, weird expectations and fancy possession.. and I didn't posses any of what I tried to obtain.. thank god I tried to manage some studying otherwise I would be here sitting and holding last semester's sheets! It was a long process that doesn't seem to end yet.. I know it harms me but I didn't end it yet.. It will destroy me deeply yet not ending it.. I just can't describe how shallow I have been.. Still trying.. still trying.. I mean still suffering.
but today and only today, I started to see a light.. that light which is said to be at the end of the tunnel.. I don't see any tunnels honestly but I started to look at my life and future more clearly, more wisely than I was.. the problem is that I sometimes lose the connection with who I want to be.. cause imagining my position may help in gathering up my will, mental and physical power.. That light made me look back and discover how much I've lost which is making me more and more furious! I won't blame myself more than I did cause at the time I was lost, I was doing nothing except blaming myself, others and every molecule in the world…. No I won't be that loser again.. I'll search for more power of my inside.. There's a light!

ربّ صدفـة خير من ألف ميعاد

2011-01-13T23:26:00.009+04:00

صيف 2003
في جو القاهرة المزدحم
نسهر في إحدى البواخر المطلة على نهر النيل
وماء النهر يعكس صورة القمر اللي كان الضوء الوحيد لليلتنا
وصوت فيروز يزيد قعدتنا رومانسية :P
واهي تغني نحنا والقمر جيران نعم كنا احنا والقمر جيران

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في طريق جسر السويس
قررنا انا وأخواني نروح نلعب في ملاهي سندباد

وهي ملاهي قديمة وايد في مصر,,
كل العايلة والأجداد مرّوا عليها فأصرينا ندخل ونزور هالمكان

وكانت الصدفة أن نلتقي بعائلة إماراتية ومن عادة والدي انه يحب يكون صداقات مع الناس فالسفر
فتعرفت على ابنتهم "م" وكانت أكبر مني بأربع سنوات
لكن لم يكن للسن أي فارق
لعبنا وتزاورنا وعشنا أحلى أيام في سفرتنا
وكأننا نعرف بعض منذ زمن

في زياراتهم لنا أنا وأمي و صديقتي"م" وأمها نجلس في المجلس الأخضر الصغير نتبادل أطراف الحديث
وفي المجلس البني كانو الرياييل أبوي وأبوها واخوي "ر" واخوي الصغير
زيارات كثيرة جمعتنا
وكان يحلى السهر في البلكونة
واحنا نشاغب
نسولف
نضحك
نتكلم عن أحلامنا
وكل وحدة تفخر بإنجازاتها :P
لكن كان للقاء نهاية بعد ما رجعنا الإمارات وانقطعت اتصالاتنا بشكل كامل
لحد2009

اليوم أفتح باب غرفتي وأسمع صوت صديقتي "م" في صالة بيتنا جاءت برفقة أخي "ر" لتشرف على ترتيبات منزلها الصغير والذي سيجمعهما معاً بعد أشهر إن شاء الله
ورح أجتمع معاها في غرفتي مثل ما كنا نجتمع في بلكونة شقتنا في القاهرة
يا رب تمم على خير

13\january\2010

2011-01-11T00:55:00.006+04:00

قبل عام ......
صباح كنتُ فيه كالنحلة النشيطة
في أحد أيام الإمتحانات النهائية للفصل الدراسي الأول
أتصفّح أوراق الامتحان العملي لمادة الـ microbiology
بين الـ إي كولاي الحمراء و أسبارجلس التي كنت أشبهها بالزهرة
وأنا ألتهم ما يمكنني إلتهامه من معلومات في آخر الدقائق...

تذكرت وقت الإمتحان
وهممت لألقي نظرة على ساعة هاتفي
لأرى رسالة جديدة لم أعرف قبل أن أقرأها
بأن محتواها يخبرني أن الله أرسل لنا هدية جميلة كالملاك

"مريوم ربّت"
كان محتوى الرسالة

يعني خليفة وصل :]
مضى حوالي أسبوعين قبل أن أراه
كنت وقتها أترقب عودتي للمنزل لأره شوقاً بأن
أعطيه إصبعي ليمسكه...

شوقاً لأضع يدي على رأسه فأتحسس الـ
Anterior fontanelle :P

شوقاً لشم رائحه كريمات جونسون
والتي مضت فترة ليست بالقليلة منذ آخر مرة شممتها

:D

بعد يومين يكمل حبيبي عامه الأول
بـ 6 أسنان
ومحاولات للمشي والتسلق إلى طاولة الطعام ماداً يده
لإلتقاط ما يمكنه إلتقاطه من صحن الفاكهة الملوّنة الذي يغريه

تمّت العمليه بنجاح
;D

يتنفس الصعداء
ويتلذذ بالإنتصار
:D

2010-10-02T19:23:00.001+04:00

Today, I've read this quote somewhere: "Quality means doing it right when no one is looking." ~ Henry Ford. I'm not sure if I got to understand the exact meaning of the quote but I thought about our deeds (including me) when people look and when they don't.. I'm too afraid that the situation has affected the quality of all kinds of our deeds (work, study, worship...) BecauSe if that happened then we'll be in an extreme danger.. And you what I mean
قال رسول الله عليه وسلم: "من أراد أحدكم أن يعمل عملاً فليتقنه"
I should have considered this hadeeth before the quote :)
Our intentions to Allah, people.

Not a lesson, just a reminder..

Have a good day :)

لـــهيب الحياة

2010-04-06T16:53:00.003+04:00

الطمــوح
شعاع يسكن في أنفسنا جميعًا..
منّا من أطفأه بهوانه وكسله
ومنا من أشعله لهيباً لينير ظلمات دروبه وأشواكها
والفطن فينا من ينتبه إلى هذا الساكن والضيف العزيز
الذي كثيراً ما يصيبه الملل والكلل من جراء "تطنيشنا" له,
فيغط في سباتٍ عميق قد لا يستقيظ بعده أبداً! 0
فرفقاً به أيها الأعزاء.. لا تتركوه مهملاً وقتاً طويلاً يشيب بعده ويموت كمدًا
..

وأُعـلِنَ في الكَونِ أن الطمـوح.. لــهــيبُ الحـياةِ وروحُ الظـفر

sparkle ♥

الحمـــــــدلله

2010-04-02T21:34:00.003+04:00

اللهم لك الحمدُ حتّى تَرْضى
ولك الحمدُ إذا رَضيت
ولك الحمدُ بعدَ الرِّضـا

اليد صاحبة الرجاء

2010-02-14T22:22:00.003+04:00

الصورة لجنين في بطن أمه لم يكمل 21 إسبوعاً إسمه سامويل ألكسندر حيث قرر الطبيب جوزيف برونر أن سامويل بحاجة إلى عملية جراحية ولكن لو تم إخراجه من بطن أمه فإنه سوف يموت ، ولذا عليه أن يقوم بإجراء العملية وهو داخل رحم الأم ..

لم تمانع الأم (جولي آرماس) من إجراء العملية حيث أنها تعمل ممرضة توليد في نفس المستشفى وهي تعرف جيداً مدى مهارة الطبيب برونر في مثل تلك الحالات حيث أنه قد قام بعدة عمليات مشابهة وقد تكللت جميعها بالنجاح.

وأثناء العملية قام الطبيب بعمل فتحة في رحم الأم ليتمكن من إجراء العملية للجنين ، وبعد أن إنتهى من العملية وبينما هو يحاول إرجاع الرحم إلى مكانه أخرج سامويل يده الصغيرة جداً وأمسك بإصبع الطبيب .

يقول الدكتور برونر (( لقد كانت هذه اللحظة من أكثر اللحظات التي مرت في حياتي تأثيراً عليّ لدرجة أنني في تلك اللحظة قد تجمدت مكاني ولم أستطع أن أفعل أي شيء أو أن أحرك إصبعي ، أحسست بأن أطرافي كلها قد تجمدت))

وبسرعة كبيرة وقبل أن ينتهي هذا الموقف الأكثر إثارة وعاطفية في العالم تم أخذ هذه الصورة ونشرت في الصحف تحت اسم (( اليد صاحبة الرجاء))

وقد كتبت الصحف عن هذه الصورة بأن الجنين سامويل قد أخرج يده الصغيرة من رحم أمه ليمسك بإصبع الطبيب وكأنه بذلك أراد أن يقول له ' شكراً لك لإنقاذك حياتي'

تقول الأم أنها بعد أن رأت الصورة ظلت تبكي لعدة أيام ، لقد تعلمت من هذه الصورة بأن الحمل ليس عبارة عن عجز و مرض وتعب بل هو إعطاء حياة لشخص آخر صغير وضعيف بحاجة إليك وإلى حمايتك.

لقد نجحت العملية 100% وولد سامويل بعد أن أتم فترة الحمل وهو الآن بصحة جيدة.

source:http://www.nabanews.net/2009/16126.html

1st clinical day

2009-11-14T23:19:00.012+04:00

Date: october 5
place: Our Own English High School (Al warqa'a)

essalam 3laikom ♥
I hope this post is going to be a fun one cause I actually had fun =D
it's the 1st clinical day for me since I joined the college, it was fun actually being around kids.. reminding us with school life and all the fun ;)

on our way

our first stop was at mankhool health centre

it's the centre controlling the private schools medically
we had a boooring speech actually from one of the doctors there
and we left excited to reach our final destination:

it's the school!
I had a weird feeling actually when we first entered, everybody were staring at us as if we were kind of aliens O_O , and the kids were pointing at me and saying: "hi scientist!!" lool since when did I become a scientist?? =P

we reached to the nurse room, asked some inquiries about everything,
we met sick kids :( most of them were having fever or abdominal pain..

then we went to the canteeeeeen, it was all fried food and unhealthy nutrition to those poor kids,
I remember one of them was screaming for the"Panjabi samboosa!!" and we bursted in laughing..

seriously, most of the food was fried, oily.. shouldn't be provided as a healthy nutrition,

regardless the chips (I admit that I was so hungry at that moment but I resisted strongly eating from their food >> not cause it's not healthy but because we were actually criticizing it =P so I will look silly big time if I took something ^_^)

Hmm.. we started hanging in the school, interviewing kids,
one of the kids was asked by my friend "what do u think of the canteen's food? Do u eat from it?"
and they boy was like" nooo waaay.. I never eat from this canteen"
we were like "uh good boy" (ya gada3 entah) =D

another kid was so smart mashallah, I asked him about swine flu and how to treat the flu in general, he started mentioning names of some drugs!! He's only 10 years but mashallah!!
when he saw my reaction, he said confidently: "I want to be a doctor, that's why" ^__^ this is him:

we took a round in their sports area:

look at this cuuuuute little kid eating his cupcake ^.^

I can't remember the rest of the details.. I don't know how will I write the report to the doctor lol =D ( a real, serious, medical report not like this one =D)
but it was a nice outgoing anyway ^__^

sparkle

3eed sa3eed but..........!

2009-09-22T02:28:00.003+04:00

happy 3eed everybody, I hope that U're enjoying these days ♥
except that I'm very sorry for the family who have lost their man
(he's a son, a brother) may Allah bless his parents and family with
patience..
I was at my grandmother's house when we were about to leave,
we heard a sound of explosion near by followed by screems of
women, their voices were very high, by seeing smoke above
their house I thought at first that there might be a fire or something..
my brothers went to see what's going on then a car which came out
of the congregation at about 200 km/hour..
I was shaking at that moment and changed my idea that someone
has died >_< because of the screems but my brothers came
back and told us the story..
the victim is a young man in 20's who was playing with fireworks ,
by a mistake, the bomb didn't fly and explode in the air but in his
face and burnt it instead!! his face was all gone..
and the most terrible is that the one who was driving
didn't have much control and made a car accident!!
I heard that the man who was burnt have died and 2 men with
him in the car are now in a bad condition..
the 3 of them need your preyers =(
Allah yr7am elli maat w y3aafi el mo9abeen ="(
اللهم اغفر له وارحمه وعافه واعف عنه وأكرم نزله ووسع مدخله واغسله بالماء والثلج والبرد ونقه من الذنوب والخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس،اللهم وأنزل على قبره الضياء والنور والفسحة والسرور، اللهم جازه بالحسنات إحسانا، وبالسيئات عفواً وغفراناً
اللهم اجعل قبره روضة من رياض الجنة

Ramadan Kareem

2009-08-29T03:47:00.004+04:00

اللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْنَا إِلَى جَمَالِ آيَاتِكَ نَاظِرِينَ، ولِرَوَائِعِ قُدْرَتِكَ مُبْصِرينَ، وَإِلَى جَنَابِكَ الرَّحِيمِ مُتَّجِهِينَ، وَاجْعَلْنَا عَلَى نَهْجِ النَّبِيِّ المُصْطَفَى - عَلَيْهِ أَفَضَلُ الصَّلاَةِ وَأَزْكَى التَّسْلِيمِ - سَالِكِينَ، وَبِسُنَّتِهِ وَهِدَايَتِهِ عَامِلِينَ، وَبِآثَارِهِ مُقْتَفِينَ، وَمَتِّعْنَا اللَّهُمَّ بِصُحْبَتِهِ فِي جَنَّاتِ النَّعِيمِ. اللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْنِي أَخْشَاكَ حَتَّى كَأَنِّي أَرَاكَ، وَأَسْعِدْنِي بِتَقْوَاكَ، وَلاَ تَجْعَلْنِي بِمَعْصِيَتِكَ مَطْرُوداً، وَرَضِّنِي بِقَضَائِكَ، وَبَارِكْ لِي فِي قَدَرِكَ، وَانْصُرْنِي عَلَى مَنْ ظَلَمَنِي.

اللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْ عَمَلَنَا كُلَّهُ خَالِصَاً لِوَجْهِكَ الكَرِيمِ..

كل عام وأنتم بخير
تقبل الله منا ومنكم صالح الأعمال
♥

done with the hard part

2009-08-15T02:09:00.004+04:00

finallllyyyyy I made "m5awwarah" for 3eed =P (traditional dress
of UAE) I can't imagine how will I look in it cuz it's been a really
really long time since I've worn one due to life time changes
((& somatic changes xD ))

mentioning 3eed, well I have great plans to do with my sisters
enshaAllah I'll go to pray 3eed "enshaAllah" =P
as well as going to grandmother house in the morning which I don't
remember doing so far.. we usually go in the afternoon or in the evening when
our house is free of visitors..

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today we had a party for my sis *D*'s birthday & graduation in the
same time, she delayed her graduation party to make it a double
party today 14/8 which is her BD hehe

♥ sparkle ♥

things I almost remember

2009-08-12T06:02:00.004+04:00

start of college 23\8 eew I can't imagine going back to that
nasty hostel again.. & surprisingly, yesterday one of my sisters
mentioned that there's going to be a new direct way from FUJ
to Dubai and I screamed "whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat"!! Actually, we
have been hearing about it since a very long time without an action,
but it seems true now as they're working on it..I don't know if
there will be a "reduction" in the time needed to go to college from
home & back in the afternoon.. poooor hopes & poor me!

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ms. purple is enjoying nesquik with milk ..

Nesquik with milk became our usual meal as ms. Purple is spending
her summer with us..

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Isn't he an amazing person?
Allah yt8abbal mnah enshaAllah..
I strongly admire his open mind, rare & fabulous ideas..
I wish I can have even half of his power

what I loved most of his work is a tv show called "لو كان بيننا"
not to forget mentioning برنامج خواطر of course, but law kan
baynana has that weird and unique touch on our hearts..
as it's mostly about prophet mohammed peace be upon him
and how to apply what he taught us befor 1400 years
now in 2009..
here's the first show, an idea about it : plzzzzzz watch it if u didn't

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnudDmYIRrg

I also have his book "خواطر" It has a very simple and clear meaning

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does your mind sleep when your body is sleeping?
another way: can your mind sleep when you're physically awake? xD
waiting for ur comments

♥ sparkle ♥

Unchain your dreams

2009-07-09T12:06:00.006+04:00

Click here please

Sparkle ♥

e.l.7.a.m.d.l.i.l.l.a.h

2009-07-09T01:01:00.001+04:00

between the lobbies of blood and serum..to the smelly cadavers and bones..
during long nights with my anatomy atlas to unsuccessful attempts to wake up early to study..
from days of cooperation between me and my friends to wake each other up..
to falling a sleep after switching all the alarms off ..
from all the frustration moments before entering the oral exams with your brain empty..
to the hugs after you get out from the exam room not knowing if you answered a single correct answer?
from summer of 2008 where I was so worrying about my acceptance in the college
to summer 2009 where I finished my first year!

>> O_O

2009-05-30T14:33:00.002+04:00

My eyes gonna pop out O_O
I hate METABOLISM
but some clinical correlations are nice ;)
I can't wait till I finish this year to get rid of biochemstry -___-
it's driving me crazy.. I even wrote on one of the walls
"Carbamoyl phosphate synthetase"
my mother will kick me out of the house if she sees it
Anyway
5 more weeks and I'll be DONE WITH FISRT YEAR WOHOOOO

Poooooooor us!!

2009-05-28T21:18:00.006+04:00

U gotta watch this!

the end is sooooo cooooool
Mwahahahahahaaaaaa xD

source

exams gonna start after 1 week
ed3oooooli =(

moments.in.my.life.

2009-05-10T16:05:00.006+04:00

.moments.

^studying at home =)

^this rose is from her

7amaam =D and it was raining.. (in school)

^ products of my hand.. LOL
I miss knitting wallah =(

mini jellys yum yumm =D

Is there a chance to meet U? ="(
"dr. fatma alkhumairi, a graduate from my college and the first
6abeeba shar3yah in UAE"

no.comment.

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they weren't the best but what I thought to post..
more coming soon.
♥sparkle♥

would do anything..

2009-05-10T01:39:00.003+04:00

Months have passed.. few days coming over..
and my first year is done.. enshaAllah
I've been through millions of feelings.. thoughts.. and experiences
I don't want to say that my experiences should be graced (they're nothing).. but
they were my little things.. the little things I felt.. Sacrificed for.. Cried for..
and I'm longing for more of this life, nothing's better than learning
from it and from others :)
looking back at my first days in my new life,
I see myself a hesitant, shy girl..but since those days till now,
I've been filled with experiences from everyone I met..
I could read the message they want to tell me from their eyes..
I saw agony mixed with joy in the same eyes..
smartness and selfishness (in the same eyes too)
all of them have stamped a unique touch on my heart..
some of them left
the others are leaving
but I'll keep my heart always praying for them..
and from the days I was the "hesitant"
I could be a better person..
knowing what suits me and what does not..
where I should be present and where I shouldn't..
learned the means of respect and love,
the means of strength and patience..
the means and ways to make others smile while your heart-broken..
and I repeat saying that all of that is "nothing"
I'm still with no appreciated deed in this wide world..
it's so much wider than my eyes can see.. than my sight can reach..
I just want to reach the dream I look for
and in it I'll be able to see the whole world :)

2009-04-02T22:44:00.004+04:00

mood: peaceful..
hearing: my sisters and their friends voices + TV
watching: cartoonZ
reading: biochem. sheets

I escaped yesterday from the hostel and skipped 2 lecutres of today.. but going back tomorrow for I need to study in the hostel's quietness ^_^ (in weekends only of course!)hmmm.. sunday is the first day of mid-term exams which will be in biochemistry >__<.. the next exam is immunology.. I get frustrated everytime I remember the immuno. gap and Anatomy's gap.. ufffffffffffff we're given 4 and a half days for 4 sheets of immunology and 2 days for 10 sheets of anatomy O_O!! the whooooole upper limb and embryology!! UNFAIR!! =( anyway.. I'll do my best w enshallah 5air! n_n

sho elsalfah everytime I sign in in msn I don't find anybody! did they change their email addresse's or msn became suddenly not included in their life style? lol regarding me, msn is blocked in the hosteland I barely find time @ home to sign in so.. msn disappeared from my life with 80% ..

el7amdlillah, on wednesday- 35\3\09 (I & my group A&A&R) presented our Article "Fragile X Syndrome"..we did great as our doctors and colleagues said.. the only mistake that we did is that we didn't take the time in consideration.. it was obligatory to present in 1 hour but we did it only in 30 minutes so we gonna lose somemarks for this but eshallah not many >_<.. anyway I'm so glad that I worked with such a unique group..
Thanx A , A & R =)

as exams are so soon, I'm back to my addiction to coffee ( Rmlah don't get mad on me!!) I don't usually drink itexcept in exams.. I remember the mornings of january exams.. I used not to be able to study unless I drink a cupof nescafe' ..

so bad that signing in to blogger is blocked in the hostel so I can't post at all unless I'm home..what a disgusting military hostel.. the only thing that they didn't do is to let us all wear the same dress.. just like the prisoners -_-"
w el7ayah 7lwah wain ma kenna

soon enshalla I'll talk briefly about fragile x syndrome
as we promised to support it till the end

and now good night all =)

2009-03-13T17:21:00.002+04:00

يا أخـي يخشـع ُ دمعـي
كلمـا رف ّ طيـف ُ الذكـريـات ِ الأولِ

يا أخي والمجد ُ غايات ٌ سمـتْ
مـن يُـرد ْ إدراكهـا فليـبـذلِ

كل ُ مـن رام َ العُـلا لـم تثنـهِ
وحشة ُ الدرب ِ وبعـد ُ المنـزلِ

Tranquil days

2009-02-13T00:06:00.000+04:00

It's Thursday so I'm home again after a long long week which is the 1st in this semester,. It was good despite the long nights I spent awake and the difficulty of waking up so early and leaving my worm bed aaaaah but this feeling disppears as I enter the class elhamdlillah..

I guess this week was so special.. do u wonder why? Hmmm I don't know either!

Good things VS Bad things *_*

First >> good things:
- FinallyJ I could know how to enjoy studying.. I also realized that I won't be able to enjoy medicine unless I was over-curious or hyper-curious O_O.. even if I'm not! I HAVE TO BE!! An obligation=D
-I got to know (j) (: it was by a chance when we discovered that both of us like one of the tv serieses so we watched it together @ the cafetria of the hostel @ mid-night!
-received a messege from a precious person(T.F) Allah y7fa'6ha mn kl shar w ys3dha w ywafgha <3
- bought a new laptop =D

Bad things:
-I felt so lonely in the first night in the hostel and I got that disguasting feeling which I go through at the beginning of every semester whether now or at school..
-one of the students in our batch (amaal) left the college! I'm miss her although I never been close to her or something but I remember the days when I used to see her in the mosque @ tarawee7 prayer.. may Allah light her path and fill her life with blesses.. :(

bas mashay wayed bad things el7amdlillah =P

Haih! I didn't talk to my.soul.mate this week which is a very very bad thing :(

bas bas =P

sudden longing

2009-01-28T00:06:00.005+04:00

Today, I woke up feeling an extremely weird feelings.. after dreaming of going to do Omrah..honestly.. I never could imagin how the feeling of missing makka would be! Maybe cause I have never been there before.. even though, when I woke up I felt like as if I was truely there! In the crowd, seeing people praying around.. It was a nice dream and the surprising part is that when I woke up and checked my mobile, I saw a massege that contains:
مكة المكرمة
It was about a new building in makka as I think.. called
برج المقام

اللهم ارزقني زيارةً إلى بيتك الحرام
="(

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2009-01-25T20:00:00.004+04:00

هنا وقود رحلتي (1) 0

ها أنا أكمل ما خطته يداي قبل 4 أشهر، في الصيف تحديداً، قبل أن أبدأ مسيرة حياتي الجديدة، والتي بدأتها بمشاعر الألم والحسرة يوماً، والرضا والاستقرار يوماً آخر، و هكذا كانت باقي الأيام.. كنت أتخبط يمنةً ويسرةً، بحثاً عن من يخرجني من المأزق والورطة الكبيرة التي أوقعت نفسي بها، سأكون صريحة هنا.. لم أكن راضية أبداً عن قراري بدخول الطب منذ أول يوم لي فالسكن! تجربة مريعة، مخيفة، بااائسة يائسة!!.....بعدها> بدأ أول يوم على غير الخير!! لم أستطع كفكفة دموعي طوال اليوم، دخلت الكلية، أخذت أتلفت بلهفة بحثاً عن زميلاتي وصديقاتي ومعلماتي، ولكن لم أجد أحداً منهم! شعرت بأنني وحيدة في هذا الكون، وحيدة النفس والصحاب والأماني والأحلام، كرهت نفسي كرهاً شديداً وكرهت كل من حولي واليوم الذي سجلت فيه في هذه الكلية التي لا حياة فيها ، تباً لكِ يا "كلية دبي الطبية" لم تتركي لي أحداً ممن أحبهم بجانبي!..... حضرت حفلة استقبالنا وأذكر أن انهمار دموع زاد عندما سمعت النشيد الوطني وكأنني أقول في نفسي" سامحني يا وطني لقد .......... خنتك!" 0

هذه كانت حالتي واليوم أصف نفسي بالضعيفة! نعم "كنتُ" ضعيفة النفس، اهتزت ثقتي بنفسي بل انمحت وكأن شيئاً لم يكن، لو رأتني صديقاتي على حالتي تلك فلن يصدقن، أقسم أنه لن تصدق إحداهن أنني أنا تلك! لا لقوة شخصيتي السابقة ولا لسيطرتي على الأمور بل لاعتيادي على أخذ الأمور "ببساطة" (ليس دائماً طبعاً) ، لكن الفاجعة أنني زدت كل عقدة تعقيداً! أو كما يقولون زدت الطين بللاً،،.. أصبحت مترددة كما ذكرت في بداية كتابتي، فضّلت الانسحاب بكل بساطة!! اتخذت البساطة في الأمور السلبية فقط!.. أرضى بقراري يوماً وأسخط منه يوماً آخر.. كرهت كل من رأيت وكل من أسدى لي رأياً أو خدمة! "هل ترينني ضعيفة إلى تلك الدرجة؟؟ أأثير شفقتك إلى هذا الحد؟؟ أترينني قليلة الخبرة بالدرجة التي لا تصل إلى ربع خبراتك لأنك أكبر مني بسنة أو سنتين في عمر الطب؟؟ تباً لكن!" << هذا ما كان يتردد في نفسي بشكل مبعثر لا كما سطرته الآن، جن جنوني! أردت العودة إلى المنزل بأقرب وقت، كانت دموعي تنهمر بلا توقف كلما حادثت أحداً من أهلي وبالأخص والدتي، حتى أذكر أنني اتصلت بها يوم الأثنين بعد أن انقطعت بي السبل وقررت الانسحاب، أجابت أمي على رنين الهاتف وبدأت فوراً بالصراخ والنحيب كأن شخصاً قريب قد توفي! مالذي يدعوك إلى ذلك؟ لا أريد أن أدرس الطب! 0

وما كان للطب شأن في كل ما كان يحدث لي، إلا أن نفسي هي التي تبدلت. 0

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2008-12-05T15:52:00.000+04:00

Long time haven't posted anything here, I've been so busy lately with studying, my family, my silly issues with some people, with myself! I'm sick of the word "myself".. anywayzZz
I lack communicating with my friends these days, except the one I can't live without ;) and some of them call me from time to time yzahum Allah 5air =) wallah sorry girls I try my best to make a balance that can make me spend to maximal time with my family which is my
p r i o r i t y and I hardly find that time =(
I'm thinking seriously about making a small gathering somewhere to gather will all my school classmates and friends, I know it's hard cuz my vacations do not match their's and not all of them will attend but enshaAllah 5air.
اشتقنا لشوفتكم حبايبنا ="(
2 days ago I was so shocked to know that *m*'s sisters (2nd year) were my sister's friends in college and still =) It was a big shock hoooooooow didn't I know that? =0
Anywaaayz
My final exams aren't too far away
Allah yastr :-#

I cooooked =P

2008-09-29T20:24:00.009+04:00

After watching the movie "Ratatouille" several times

and the inspiration that fell on me from remi (the mouse)
finally
I decided to cook something
and with the help of MG's thread in talkish
I came up with this

Oat Potato Kofta :D
it's was soooooo yummyyyyyyyyy omg I was about to cry I couldn't belive that I could cook something so delicious heheheee looooool=D

click here to see the recipe

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w I did my usual soup
it's called "sparkatello soup" lolz

Ingredients:
9dr dyayh mga66a3 sharaye7
half cup of flour (67een)
half cup of nasha (corn flour) 0
goo6e corn
three large spoons of gaimar lol
one moka33ab maggi

al6aree8a:
mix it all with 4 cups of water 3al fire and here we goooooooo

btw it's not the first time that I cook lol .. I used to cook when I was younger, like in 13-14 yrs but then later I got busier hahaay
**
anyway, I have so many things to do, so much to study, a lot to acheive
so I'll rarely post here
ed3ooli girlz
="(

is this freedom?

2008-09-27T12:22:00.003+04:00

They say I have freedom
I can do what I want
They say I have freedom
To speak how I feel

But how is it freedom
To be judged for my deeds
And persecuted for speaking
Revealing my thoughts
How is it freedom
To fear being called strange
To think different thoughts
To the people you call friends

I live in my mind
I hide in my brain
I don't dare to speak out again
And I'm free to be lonely
And misunderstood
I'm free to be hated and shunned

This is the freedom
This is not freedom
It cannot be freedom
To hide from the world

~ Clover West

وداعاً رمضان

2008-09-26T22:12:00.005+04:00

اللهم لا تجعله آخر العهد من صيامنا إيّاه فإن جعلته فاجعلني مرحوماً ولا تجعلني محروماً

***
اللهم إنك عفّو تحب العفو فاعفُ عنّا

***

من الأشياء التي أصبحت لا تفارقني

جزى الله من أهدتني إيّاه عفوه وعظيم غفرانه وأسكنها الفردوس الأعلى
آمين (=

The cure of the mind

2008-08-21T18:21:00.002+04:00

I'm so glad that I spent some of my time in reading, I bought new books, some of them were "novels" which is not expected..
I bought them to READ them not only to fill my bookcase with them..
As I read somewhere "the library is a hospital for the mind" .. that's is extremely true
And I say "a book is a cure for the mind"

:)

this was my collection of books for this summer:

I have read them all except which I'm currently reading:
الإصبع المتحرك – أغاثا كريستي
and the last two are:
ذاكرة الأفيال
&
المرآة المكسورة

--

this might be the last post of the summer
a new journal is on my way
wish me luck
<3

Quiz!

2008-08-21T01:53:00.002+04:00

Do U really know me ?????????

click here

^enter your name

and let's see the result
!

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2008-08-15T03:51:00.007+04:00

شعور بالخوف يداهمني كل لحظة، حيرة بصحة قراراتي أصبحت شبحاً يلازمني، ربما لأنني مقدمة على خطوة كبيرة والتي ستحدد بالتأكيد مسيرة باقي حياتي والتي بموجب هذا القرار، سأمضيها "إن شاء الله ذلك" بين مريض وآخر، في المستشفيات وبين الأطباء..
لا أنكر أنني أحب هذه الحياة (حياة الأطباء)، بل أعشقها، بكل ما فيها من صعوبة ومشقة، الحمدلله أنني اخترت الإلتحاق بكلية الطب بدافع الحب والرغبة في أن أصبح طبيبة يُشار إليها بالبنان في يوم من الأيام "إن شاء الله ذلك"، فمع قليل من الصبر والتحمل سأتجاوز بإذن الله كل الصعوبات، ولكن هذا ليس محور خواطري وما يدور في ذهني الآن. ه

يُـتبع 0000

Leaning to my childhood

2008-08-15T03:08:00.002+04:00

I wish I can grow younger!
I hate growing older.. I HATE IT !!
I want to feel, think and live like I used to 10 years ago..
I want to be that innocent who was loved from everyone and known as the most "quiet"..
I wish I can cry spontaneously and don’t listen to any question except attempts to make me smile..
I wish I can run with bared feet holding a red lollypop in my hand, with my hair flying in the air.. I wish I can spend my time with my sisters like we used to..
I wish I can meet my childhood's friend who used to give me a hug every morning, I miss her from the bottom of my heart, I wish I can see her as soon as possible but that seems impossible..
I wish that my sky turns blue, the land I see turns green, the shore I see turns clear, the pain I feel turns away..
I wish I can stop this feeling of missing my childhood.

تنفيس

2008-08-13T03:32:00.004+04:00

تعتريني موجة أحاسيس لا أستطيع صدّهـا
أحاسيس تأخذيني بعيداً حيث الراحة والسكينة
تجعلني أُبحر في لحظات لم يكن لي فيها أنيس
سوى الله
كم أشتاق لحنايا تلك الأيام

ربّي جدّد الإيمان في قلبي! 0
قد كلّ بعده عنك
وقد أشتاق إليك
فـ يا رب ألبِسه ثوب الإيمان
فـ قلبي عاد مُلطخاً بأوساخ الدنيا و زينتها
ربي إنزع حب الدنيا من قلبي
وباعد بينه وبين حبها كما باعدت بين المشرق والمغرب

عَنْ عَبْدِ الله بن عَمْرو بن العَاص رَضِيَ الله عَنْهُمَا قَالَ: قَالَ رَسُولُ الله صَلَّى الله عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ :"إِنَّ الإِيمَانَ لَيخلق فِي جَوْفِ أَحَدكُمْ كَمَا يَخلقُ الثَّوْبُ فَاسْأَلُوا الله أَنْ يُجَدِّدَ الإِيمَانَ فِي قُلُوبِكُمْ"0

~ n e w ~ d a y ~

2008-08-03T06:56:00.007+04:00

Good Morning
Sweet Morning

I just love today <3
I've never experienced watching the sunrise this summer b4 this morning and it felt
amaaazing <3
but unfortunately, I counl't take any shot =(

--

thanx to bestperson who gave me the chance to get to know an amazing person (=
I never love the people she likes haha except this one :-

حـنـان الـقـطـان

you can watch her on her T.V show:
"رســالــتــي"
كل أربعاء في الساعة الثامنة مساءً بتوقيت الإمارات
ويعاد يوم الخميس في الحادية عشر والنصف مساءً
على قناة الـــــــرســـــــالـــــة

I'm good at marketing =P

--

I had some weird feelings that push me to go on with a clear mind again, it's like I never had a clear mind during the past 3 years! but it feels like there was a big weight on my shoulders and finally, I could let it off..
Finally, I can live and think peacefully
Finally, I have different and new goals to achieve
Finally, I have a dream to chase!

Crochet~

2008-07-31T17:20:00.004+04:00

long time haven't updated :S

Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrple xD

^while working =D

^ this was gifted to the unusuall soul "miss green" cuz it's greeeeeeeeeen <3>

الإمام الشافعي رحمه الله

2008-07-08T01:12:00.005+04:00

one of the great scholars,

a great poet,

he filled the Arabic literature with his fascinating literary deeds..
U'll read a short biography about him

enjoy <3

في سيرة الإمام الشافعي رحمه الله: 0

هو محمد بن إدريس بن شافع، الهاشمي، القرشي، (المطلبي) أبو عبدالله: أحد الأئمة الأربعة عند أهل السنة. 0

ولد في غزة (بفلسطين) وحمل منها إلى مكة وهو ابن سنتين0 ودفن بالقاهرة وقبره ظاهر بالقاهرة يزار0 كان من أحذق الرماة في قريش0
برع الشافعي في اللغة، والشعر، وأيام العرب، ثم أقبل على الفقه والحديث! 0

وكان رحمه الله مفرط الذكاء0 أفتى وهو ابن عشرين سنة. 0

من قصائده: 0

إذا المرء لا يرعاك الا تكلفا
فدعه ولا تكثر عليه التأسفا
ففي الناس أبدال وفي الترك راحة
وفي القلب صبر للحبيب ولو جفا
فما كل من تهواه يهواك قلبه
ولا كل من صافيته لك قد صفا
إذا لم يكن صفو الوداد طبيعة
فلا خير في ود يجئ تكلفا
ولا خير في خل يخون خليله
ويلقاه من بعد المودة بالجفا
وينكر عيشا قد تقادم عهده
ويظهر سراً قد كان بالأمس قد خفا
سلام على الدنيا إذا لم يكن بها
صديق صدوق صادق الوعد منصفا

الحكم الشافعية: 0

"اللبيب العاقل هو الفطن المتغافل"

"ليس بأخيك من احتجت إلى مداراته"

"الوقار في النزهة سخف"

****

توفي رحمه الله بمصر وكان عمره أربع وخمسين سنة،، أسكنه الله فسيح جناته. 0

إذا المرء لا يرعاك إلا تكلفاً
من إنشاد: سلمان الملا
هـــــنــــــا

إلــ ــهــ ــي

2008-07-03T17:39:00.008+04:00

إلـهي وخلاّقي
وحرزي وموئلي

إلـيك لدى الإعـسار واليسر أفـزع

إلـهي لئن جلّت وجمّت خطـيئتي
فـعفوك عن ذنـبي أجلُّ وأوسـعُ
ربّي لا أرجو سواك، فليس سواك لي غنى ، أنت الغني عمّن سواك
اغفر لي ما اكتسبت من ذنوب

إلـهي أجرني من عذابك إنني أسيرة

ذليلة

خائفة

لك أخـضـع

ربي، عفوك كل رجائي

s u m m e r

2008-07-02T21:00:00.004+04:00

Long time has passed since my last update & my summer vacation started more than one month ago, I haven't considered it as a VACATION yet!! For certain reasons but I finally decided to enjoy it no matter what happened~

and in the honor of my enjoyment I got me some books that I was eager to read

مع الناس
&
نور وهداية
لـ علي الطنطاوي

I've finished reading the first two articles of (ma3a annas) and the first one was
أحسن كما أحسن الله إليـك
I have read it b4 when my friend Lavender's Aroma posted it in talkish

Click here to read it

I'll begin reading the second one tonight, I can't finish reading the first book without jumping to the other -__-"

Anyway

here are some shots that I took with my new baby Canon 400D <click

texture

This is my angel,:

I took her shots from my laptop's screen

mwaa7

I did that using lens keeekeke

My recent crochet work,

That's it,

see u 4 now

Chaaaaaw

Memories~

2008-03-29T14:29:00.006+04:00

do-re-me-fa ~ hi, I began my day so early as usual, it started with studying math

later, I decided to go to Dubai library, I went and bought me new notebooks, papers, files and other things that I don't need =P
**this is one of the things that I wished to own long time ago :

I love his poems :) .. I promised myself if I finished reading this book, I'll buy ديوان أبو القاسم الشابي For I love his poems too..

hmmm.. yesterday was a blast! I went upstairs and I was so curious to check my old books and I got a heart attack :

that was for grade 2!!!!!!!!!!!! Omg I felt like I wanted to cry ="(

lol @ my hand writing!!
here's my multiplication table for grade 3 !!!!!!!

I covered it =P that's why it hasn't gotten damaged at all, I'll give that to my kids hahahaaa

here's another big shock.. my grades for grade 7 :

28.5 out of 35!!
10.5 out of 15!!
11 out of 15!!
لا وكنت الأولى!! مادري على شو

this was one of my english's marks.. that was for grade 7 :

First time in my life .. lol

I remember seeing one of my drawings but I forgot to take a shot of it..

anyway, I started to make new crocheted CD
Greeeeeeen

My beloved strings lol:

I'm tired.. I think I'll go to have launch\\byebye =D

Creativity~

2008-03-27T21:58:00.003+04:00

Hi,
being able to be creative is an amazing thing, it adds so much to your life. Every person looks at things from different perspectives, some people like to gain fame from it, while others are wishing to gain enough encourages and they feel that by their creativity, they can add something to others lives! without paying any attention to fame and those obsolescent things.

Every person can be creative, being creative isn't only about drawing or designing or coordinating colors! It's more than that.. artists are creative when they draw with sensation and serenity soul, designers are creative when they incorporate their ideas with the core of the message that they want to access to people.
what a gossip =P
anyway, yesterday I had to take some shots of our physics project:

Useless =S I don't know what is the point of collecting all these tools together =D

the weekend started *_^ I already have written down my aims.. I'll do my best to achieve all of them

I want sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep now, I'll go to twist under my bed's cover.. heheGood night =D

Electronics Rubbish~

2008-03-25T15:49:00.003+04:00

mood: extremely exhausted

Hi,
FINALLY I found a way to consume my hobby "crocheting" when I saw a poster about a competition by our IT teachers.. it was about consuming CD's or other computer part in a creative way and those were my results by using one large CD and 3 mini ones:

I had finger ache yesterday ="( … but it deserves participating

bye bye =D

Sparkling Achievements~

2008-03-23T07:07:00.002+04:00

mood: optimistic =D

I've been in a huge hesitation to choose my future career.. it's like I have to pic between a hard faculty that needs a big amount of potential to spend plus giving up from my social life and spending not less than 7 years in university! but it's with a great and guaranteed future, that was the first choice and the second choice is spending reasonable and possible number of years! And studying with less potential, plus it's something I love! Yea I'm truly in love with it.. I'm in love with medicines and learning about them and that what makes feel wanting to study in the faculty of pharmacy.. NOT medicine =S

Anyway.. this weekend had so much behind, we had 3 days off (2 for weekend and 1 for almawled annabawi) it's one of the best weekends ever! ;) I had so much fun in achieving mostly all the aims of it .. hehe

except for geology which I usually delay it forever =D lol *I'll do that at night*

hmmm… one of the special things that helps me to go on in this life is my cute beloved cam <3 though I'm wishing to get (canon s5) this summer *inshaAllah*… I snapped a shot of one of my latest crochets:
Greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen

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a poem of الإمام الشافعي :
شكوت وكيع سوء حفظي
فأرشدني إلى ترك المعاصي
وأخبرني بأن العلم نور
ونور الله لا يهدى لعاصي
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that's it for today… I'm longing for more amazing weekends.. hehe
*wishing to have an exciting week*
byebye =)

Good Morning~ and welcome to my blog

2008-03-22T08:33:00.004+04:00

Hi, this is my first post in this blog.. I was actually thinking about making one years ago but I was lazy I think :P and I'm thankful for Bblogger for giving me this chance to have my own page! ;)

so.. in this page, I'll start to write my diaries and journals (I don't promise :P) but I think I'll do that in my free time..
that's it for now.. take care!